February 24th, 2010
Depression is the number one mental illness in the United States. Everyone suffers from the blues atleast once in their life. Since living with lupus it’s been a struggle to avoid depression. During the first few years of my illness I went through a time of deep depression. I felt like the world had ended. I had given up on life. I just went through the motions of life rather then pulling my self together and accepting it as another one of those opstacles in life. It took me years to get to the point where the depression does not affect me as much. I still do struggle with depression every day. It’s heard getting up each day when your in pain almost constant. It would be easier to just sink back in to depression. At the time, I felt like I was the only one dealing with the pain. In reality I did know other people suffered from chronic pain, but at the time I felt like the pain had stolen all my hopes and dreams. I’m realising now that I can over come things even if I live in pain every single day of my life. I pray eacch day for it to disapper in the sunset and wonder why I got ‘blessed’ with chronic pain and lupus.
For anyone dealing with chronic illness hold your head up high and smile beccause their’s always light at the end of the tunnel even if it’s just a speck of light. Have a great day and pray your pain will be reduced.
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Thank you for what you wrote, the worst part of this illness for me is being in a family where know one understands how hard it is to live with this disease. My brothers have turned their backs on me, because I live with my parents and my brothers resent me because they believe my living here has kept my parents from their lives. I live in the basement apartment of my parents home, I have not taken any money from them since I am 16, and do pay rent and try to live as indepently as I can, but they don’t see it that way and have nothing to do with me it is so hurtful and fustrating, because as you know lupus in itself is a full time job.
Many blessings to you and anyone out there suffering with their family as well.
Diane,
I feel your pain. I have a saying I tell people who don’t understand my pain ‘Walk a Mile in My Footsteps and then you tell me how it is’. I’ve told people I hope to God you don’t get lupus because I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy and that’s the whole truth. It’s sad when a sibling cannot love the other sibling uncondtionally. Tell you sibling to come to my site if you like. Hugs CC
I just came across your blog today and it has inspired me to start one of my own. This post really spoke to me, as I’m in the midst of a flare up and I’ve definitely hit a low point and an feel myself falling into depression. It’s so hard because people can’t really *see* how sick you are. I get the feeling sometimes that they think I’m exaggerating how sick I am to get attention or something. It’s so hard to get out of bed every day when the people around me don’t seem supportive. In their defense, I’m sure they probably just don’t realize, but it makes it harder and harder to fight the fatigue and pain every day. Thank you for your words.
.-= Shruti´s last blog ..Honesty at the Outset =-.
I just came across your blog today and it has inspired me to start one of my own. This post really spoke to me, as I’m in the midst of a flare up and I’ve definitely hit a low point and an feel myself falling into depression. It’s so hard because people can’t really *see* how sick you are. I get the feeling sometimes that they think I’m exaggerating how sick I am to get attention or something. It’s so hard to get out of bed every day when the people around me don’t seem supportive. In their defense, I’m sure they probably just don’t realize, but it makes it harder and harder to fight the fatigue and pain every day. Thank you for your words.
.-= SR´s last blog ..Honesty at the Outset =-.
Shruti,
Thanks. I try to find the speck, but some days are better than others. Keep your head up, I know easier said than done. Darn Flares….
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