Chronic Chick Talk

My Pain is Real

My pain is real

Its as real as I can feel it.

It affects me inside and out.

Each day I have to live with it.

Its so real inside me.

I don’t wish it on anyone

I have learned to live with it.

Day after Day.

Month after month

Year after year.

Its not been by choice.

I did not ask for it.

Sometimes it angers me.

Other times it grounds me.

It makes me appreciate the small things in life.

Other times it makes me sad.

Its something I don’t wish on anyone.

Its hard to explain to someone appreciate what you have.

Not living with it you cannot understand.

The only thing I can say is I miss the life without pain.

Now, those momments of no pain I wonder where it is.

Its crazy to feel this way, but I do.

My pain is real and so is my feelings from it.

Feeling the pain day after day is like a long lesson in life.

Appreciate the small things in life.

A smile brings joy to my heart each day.

Struggles of a Week Poem

Its hard to believe another week has passed

We all get older each and every second of the day

A week has passed and what have your accomplished?

I can say this week I have accomplished a thing or two.

Its not been an easy week with struggles with illness.

And struggles with a beautiful daughter I chose to home school.

Its been strugles with life and struggles with pets.

But I’m thankful for these struggles right now.

Because I have life.

So today think about all your struggles as a blessing rather then a curse.

Some Days they feel like a curse, but at this moment I welcome them.

Thanks for stopping by and I send you a………………

The Lupus and its Lies

The lupus and its lies.
It is full of so many of them.
It makes a fool of you many times.
You think its hiding and really its just waiting.
Its waiting to attack.
It thinks you’re its target.
You are a target that cannot run.
You have no control over it.
It keeps coming back for more and more.
It not only takes away health.
It haunts you like a bad horror flick
You try to turn on the lights and it does not good.
Its  the monster in the corner waiting to prowl.
You feel out of control because of it.
Its a crazy disease that has no rules.
You don’t know where it will go.
and when it will go.
Its like the worst annoying neighbor you every have.
But it never leaves it just enjoys playing hide and go seek.

The Pain within Me is Real

My pain is real as I feel it each day.

Its as real as I breathe.

Each day I struggle with it each day.

And the worst part is others see me struggle with it.

Some days are easier then others.

Pain does not give you a choice.

Its something I live with.

Its become a part of who I am.

It does not discriminate.

I did not ask for this pain.

But it is real as I can feel.

The pain is never gone because it lives within me

I try to stay strong about it.

But its not easy to do.

I do not wish it on anyone.

My pain is real and not an illusion.

Many chose to deny it.

I have to remember that I do not have to prove it.

I know what I feel and its a deep pain from within

Many live with the same pain.

And I pray they will be free of it.

Because no one should live in pain.

Lupus has Changed my Life Forever

I was once a physically strong woman.

It was gradually taken away from me.

Lupus has changed my life forever.

I once cared for others.

Now I have to accept help from others.

Lupus changed my life forever.

This is not the life I signed up for.

I once had dreams of many.

Lupus has changed my life forever.

Now, I just have to make it through the day.

I live with pain each day.

Lupus changed my life forever.

My family suffers with me.

They did not sign up for this either.

Lupus changed my life forever.

People say I don’t look sick.

I ask you ” What does sick look like?”

Lupus changed my life forever.

You say you understand, but you can’t unless you’ve lived with it.

You may understand if your family or friend is affected.

Lupus changed my life forever

What was once my life is now my life with lupus

Along the way lupus has taught me many things.

I’ve learned to appreciate the small things

To appreciate the good days, even if its just a simple smile.

Lupus changed my life forever.

I would not wish this disease on anyone no matter how cruel or evil they are.

Even my dogs are affected by lupus.

So you can’t ever say that animals don’t have compassion, because mine do.

Lupus changed my life forever.

They know when I flare and it shows.

You say I’m too young to be sick.

But lupus doesn’t care.

Lupus changed my life forever.

It tears famlies apart bit by bit.

My life has changed forever because of lupus.

I’ve learned to appreciate the simple things in life.

Lupus changed my life forever.